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damn. I've barely written anything yet my pageviews are so high. I don't even know what to write about any more. should I talk about how I feel fat all the time and horribly constrained by my circumstances.

for the next few months, I guess i'll just post intakes and stuff because the world at large (aka moi) cares so much about that.

Why 88?

Well, it's actually not such a crazy weight for me. I'm not quite 5 feet and my hips are really narrow and I really do have a small frame. According to my doctor, it's in my healthy range. Needless to say, as nearly 60 pounds above that weight, I'm well above the healthy range. It hasn't always been this way but when I entered high school, I started really emotionally eating. I had always been curvy and got boobs early, but this wasn't natural. Because of all the stress, I just eat and eat and eat. I've lost all sense of balance and my health is starting to flag. Diabetes is in my family history as well as heart disease, thyroid problems, and ovarian cancer. If I don't do something now, I will get even more locked into my bad habits and coping mechanisms. But enough of that. 

88 is double infinity signs. Double lucky numbers. A pair of snowmen. A bunch of circles. Something about eighty-eight is really attractive. Like possessing that number is possessing double infinity or the universe or something. Yeah it's just one of the best numbers ever. 

So yeah. This is me. In all my shame and glory.